3 posts tagged “reflections”

"Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God says not until you're satisfied, fulfilled and content with living loved by Me alone; with giving yourself totally unreservedly to Me alone. My child, until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you won't be capable of the perfect human relationship I planned for you. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan that exists ---- one that you can't imagine.  I want you to have the best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. Just keep looking at Me, expecting the greatest things ---- keep experiencing satisfaction of knowing that I AM and learning and listening to the things I tell you. Don't be anxious, don't look around others and what I have given them. Don't look at the things you think you want. Just keep looking at Me or you'll miss what I have to show you. When you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful that you could ever dream. Until you're ready and until the one I have for you is ready. I'm working at this very moment to have you both ready at the same time. Until you're both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have planned for you. You won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me and this is perfect love. Dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union that I offer you with Myself. I love you. I am the GOD ALMIGHTY!"

This was emailed to me by a friend. And it says right. I don't need to long to be in a relationship. I need to be satisfied first with the love of God. How then will I be satisfied with a man's love which is imperfect if I'm not satisfied with God's love, the perfect love.

Eyes on God.

There are times that I feel alone. At those times I need someone to talk to that would really listen to me. I'm surrounded by people who loves me but doesn't seem to care about what I feel. When I am to tell what I feel about something or even say that I'm having problems with something, they don't listen. They talk and talk. And sometimes, we end up arguing. So what I do is I keep everything everything to myself. As I keep everything to myself, I long for comfort. Comfort that no one can give me. I just found myself clinging on to God. I tell Him what I feel. And He's just there to listen. He listens to me that neither my parents nor my best friends had ever listened to me. It made me feel better, better than ever. Why do I always forget to seek Him first? Why do I come to Him as my last resort? I wouldn't have done regretful things if only I seek Him first. I wouldn't have felt that miserable, lonely, alone,unloved. If I just knew even before how it feels to be comforted by Him.

     Lately, I've been thinking of joining the Chronicle ministry of Jzone.But God said I'm not for it. He has other plans for me. He wants me to serve Him in other ministries. And besides, I can still serve him through writing but not in that ministry.
    Since Sol, my bestfriend, wants me to join vox, I'll serve Him through blogging. I'm not really into blogging, but I want to serve Him thorugh writing and I want to have an outlet. Because there are times that I don't tell anyone what I fell and think and I keep everything to myself. Maybe it is God's way of telling me to be honest to myself, be more open to others and most of all, not to suppress my feelings.
    As of now, I'm still consulting god about the Chronicle ministry. It's still not clear to me if it's not yet the right time or I'm not really for it.