5 posts from October 2008

"Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God says not until you're satisfied, fulfilled and content with living loved by Me alone; with giving yourself totally unreservedly to Me alone. My child, until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you won't be capable of the perfect human relationship I planned for you. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan that exists ---- one that you can't imagine.  I want you to have the best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. Just keep looking at Me, expecting the greatest things ---- keep experiencing satisfaction of knowing that I AM and learning and listening to the things I tell you. Don't be anxious, don't look around others and what I have given them. Don't look at the things you think you want. Just keep looking at Me or you'll miss what I have to show you. When you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful that you could ever dream. Until you're ready and until the one I have for you is ready. I'm working at this very moment to have you both ready at the same time. Until you're both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have planned for you. You won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me and this is perfect love. Dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union that I offer you with Myself. I love you. I am the GOD ALMIGHTY!"

This was emailed to me by a friend. And it says right. I don't need to long to be in a relationship. I need to be satisfied first with the love of God. How then will I be satisfied with a man's love which is imperfect if I'm not satisfied with God's love, the perfect love.

Eyes on God.

What's going on in our lives now? Most of us our lost somewhere. Some keep on finding for themselves in wrong things,places, and people. Then we blame them why we end up like this. But who really is to blame? We are to blame. Ourselves. We can't keep on blaming others for what happened and what's happening to us. People influences us in every way. We are interdependent, right? But we can't blame them. Why? We are the decider of our own actions. We can say that they told us to do this and that. BUT it is us who really decides what to do and how to do it. It is us who respond in that way.

We ask God why this and that. We became angry at God because things didn't end up the way we want it. The way we planned it. Have we asked ourselves why we did that?Why we respond that way? Have you asked God what is the lesson behind all these problems?

I was not able to post blogs last month because it a hell month for students like me. There are a lot of deadlines to meet. A lot of requirements to pass. A lot of books to read. A lot of time to spend studying for quizzes and recitations. There are a lot of thing to do. It's like pressure and stress is eating me up. But the good thing there is I still managed to get through that month. God gave me enough strength, wisdom and knowledge to get through all the things I need to do. He did a lot of things. He blessed us a lot. He helped us in our documentary. He helped us pass courses(subjects).

We are so busy in school because we are all cramming. Almost the whole month all we did was discussion, lectures, recitations,seat works and home works. Then this last two weeks of classes came the storm of quizzes and  advance finals. It's hard to study for a quiz that you discussed for about 2-3 weeks ago you know. But it's kinda cool. Only a few of us were grumbling because of what's going on. And  I was kinda I-don't-know-what-will-happen-but -I'll-be-okay and why-is-it-I'm-not-worrying. I;m not really like that. When times get tough and the schedule is tighter that I can hardly breath and I need to time everything I do, I grumble and say and do a lot of stupid things.

This semester is so weird and fun at the same time. For a short time a lot of things happened. My personal life was heavily stormed by something. My academics is a mess(kinda). But my social life, ahahaha! it's the best! I still managed to spend a lot of time with my friends.

Yey! The first semester of our second year in college is officially over. We had finals for almost three weeks because some of our professors gave us an advance exam. Well, it benefited us. We just studied for four courses(subjects) instead of nine for the finals week. And we took the exams for the four courses in just two days. Now we can rest and do what we want to do for about three weeks.

The jam pack month is now over. The stressful and tiring month is now over. We can now rest as much as we want. Sleep all day. Hang out somewhere. Sleep so late at night or even sleep around 4am. There are no more quizzes, recitations, seat works, home works. We can text as much as we want. We can stay on the phone for long hours. Surf the internet until our eyes couldn't handle it. Read books that we like. Have sleepovers just to hangout all night and have movie marathons.

Since the semester's break has officially started, we are now going to prepare for the kick off party!!!! Whoooh! I'm not supposed to go but me and my other block mates are going to play songs in the party. I forgot the theme. But it's because of the theme. Every batch must have representatives to perform. It could be bands, solo or duet. For our block, we are a band. Yeah! Hahaha! I missed playing the guitar. I missed playing the bass guitar. I missed going to a studio to practice or just even sitting in my friend's band to listen and watch them play.

I think this break is going to be interesting and so fun!